30 Days to a Better Man – Day 18 Update – It’s Going to Happen, I Promise

I’m really busy with the end of school right now. Also, today’s task is really time-consuming and time is something I do not have. So instead of a DBM post today, it will be a late Trivial Matters post about something TBD. This magical other post will probably arrive closer to early tomorrow morning, sorry but I also need to sleep. Life should mellow out for me in the next couple days and this sort of thing won’t happen again until the end of May and that’s quite exciting. Also, once this series ends, posts will be about three or four times a week on other topics that are TBD. So, get hype for ambiguity.

A little behind on life,


30 Days to a Better Man – My Day 17 – People are Icky

I’m ready to admit today’s activity was awesome. I’m not a very open person. I don’t like meeting new people or being put in the spotlight unless I’m comfortable. I’d be happy to go to space for a few months and have it be just me and two other people. I like being by myself or with friends or family rather than with strangers. I always find the seat away from people in class or in the back. At parties, I find the room with books and pretend I’ve found an interesting book and I spend my time like that. I don’t appreciate talking to strangers so today put me outside my comfort zone. I had to talk to three strangers. AoM is meaning to play off the idea that men are distrustful because of how we were raised (don’t talk to strangers, they could be a serial murderer). So the idea is to take us out of our comfort zone (duh) and try to be more social. I was really nervous.

Like I said, I try to sit in the back of classes to minimize my contact with people as much as possible. Also, one of my classes ended today so I thought it would be perfect to talk to someone I hadn’t said a word to all semester. We also had a final test today and I got there early to study so I went to a private resource room for students in my major and, lo and behold, there was a girl from my class already in the room studying. I took a seat at the same table and did a little studying before I made my move (I sneezed). Then I awkwardly started a conversation on that riveting opener (I must have zero social skills). But turned out she was really chill about everything. We talked about the class and our plans for the summer and a bunch of stuff. She was really nice and we gave some friendly goodbyes later after the class ended. Stranger One was a success.

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I also had a plan for my second stranger (I already had plans for all the strangers [that made me sound like a serial killer, whoops] ). I don’t want to say too much about where I work but I’m in the service business and we have a small group of clientele and it’s kind of just expected of us to learn their names, but I’m awful with names. I get it from my dad. I’ve had my job for about eight months and I don’t know even half of their names.hooker It’s a little embarrassing when I need to admit it to a co-worker so, lately, I’ve been trying to have conversations with them to get to know the clients a little better (now I sound like a hooker :/ [disclaimer: I’m not a hooker] ). Near the end of my shift, I walked up to one of the ladies and talked about the evening and any plans she had for the night. After awhile of talking, I think I really got to know her better. Stranger Two was a success.

Now, I have no idea how the plan for the third stranger is going to go. I was really hoping some of the people who poke around on this blog would be willing to say something about themselves or mention how they found this thing. I would love to talk to one of you. I know this seems like a crappy little blog in the corner of nowhere on the internet, but it really has become part of my daily life and I think about what I’m going to write about next all the time. I take about a few hours every day to write on here. Anyone willing to come out to read these posts are people I want to know more about. So in summation, leave a comment and I’ll message back. And if no one sends a message then I’ll just have to cry myself to sleep again tonight. No big deal.

A little worried no one will bother,


Origin of all clever and funny pictures I added:

strangers – http://bloody-disgusting.com/editorials/3389637/terrifying-pointlessness-strangers/

sneeze – http://io9.gizmodo.com/5986180/the-8-incredibly-gross-powers-superman-doesnt-even-realize-he-has

hooker – https://www.someecards.com/usercards/viewcard/you-cant-please-everyone-you-are-not-a-hooker–c4f7b/

30 Days to a Better Man – Day 7 Update – I have friends!

So day seven was focused on reconnecting with some old friends. I picked a guy who moved away during grade school and a girl I met at summer camp one year. Even though it was probably weird I messaged them out of the blue, they were still super awesome about it and willing to talk. It was fun to catch up with them and find out what they’re up to. The guy is Texas right now taking engineering classes and he seems really happy. The girl is finishing up high school this year and currently getting ready for her graduation ceremony. I wish it could have in person or with letters, but I’m just happy they’re both doing alright. I’m happy I didn’t make it 50 and I still haven’t said anything to them. I’m thinking of doing another round of it and picking some other people to talk to again. Overall, it was a super worthwhile activity and I suggest you try it out for yourself. Whoever you pick, remember, you were friends at one point and I’m sure they would love to reconnect. Just try it out.

30 Days to a Better Man – My Day 16 – One Day I’ll Make it Rain (With Hundreds)

I hate going through my bank statements. They’re boring and they make me feel like a stuffy adult. So instead they go in the laundry basket which I cover with my work stuff. The only time bank statements have surfaced was for FAFSA renewal. Other than that Image result for make it rain money gifthey mostly just disappear into the void. I have no system and I haven’t needed a system. For a while, I didn’t have a job, but I had a bank account for the checks I got over the year and so it didn’t seem important to deal with them. Fast forward a few years and now I have two jobs and I’m in college, but my budgeting has remained non-existent. I started a budget back in high school for an economics class though the only entries were “deposit of $14 from mom” then “withdrawal of $14 for Fall Festival tickets” so needless to say I wasn’t really pandering for a budgeting system. But now I’m making REDACTED a month so it may be time to plan ahead (especially when I discovered I spent more than I made last month, yikes).

Today’s task from AoM is to start a budget. So I got to work on it early today, I found a budgeting website and I located my most recent bank statements (they were still in the envelopes). But then I came across a new issue. Apparently, there is a problem with me Joselogging into my own bank account. Also, I found a few charges to my debit card from San Jose, California (I don’t leave anywhere near there). My identity hasn’t been stolen and I haven’t been hacked so that’s all good news. My bank account just needs some kind of verification to do remote billing that they never told me about and so I can’t log into my online bank account. That’s one heart attack solved, but I still have no idea about the charges. This has been a wake-up call. I’ve been too reckless with my spending and with how I handle my money. I’m going to get this all figured out as soon as possible.

So I wasn’t able to start a budget yet, but it will be done once I can figure out my bank account and get that connected to the site I’m using. I’ll be much more at ease when all of this has been sorted out.

A little frustrated with money,


Gifs and Yifs:

Rain – http://popkey.co/m/RQk4l-trending-make+it+rain-party-partying

Jose – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=car6ehhepxw&ab_channel=MikeVok

30 Days to a Better Man – My Day 15 – This Title Makes Total Sense

I don’t have a lot of quality skills, but I’m shockingly good at cooking. And not only am I good at cooking but I also like doing it. Something about starting from scratch and creating something is really satisfying and gives me such a feeling of pride. I suck at cars, building things and fixing houses. All that regular guy stuff. But cooking is different forbad at car me. If I could do anything with my life (besides work at Disney, be an astronaut, or become a superhero) I would like to be a 4-star chef. I shoot for the real stars here people either space ones or food ones. My mom isn’t all that big on cooking so a lot of the time when I was growing up I just went and made something for myself. I didn’t do it because I liked it, but because I liked not starving to death. I guess eventually the Stockholm syndrome took hold and now I never want to leave it. Messed up right? Also, I’m a really picky eater and so I would have to plan ahead and cook meals to replace the ones I wouldn’t like to eat. I’ve been intimately involved with food for many years now.

Today, was a breeze. I love cooking for my family and I often help my mom with dinner when she’s making something new. The goal for today was to make a meal but not a box burgerdinner but a real one where you have to plan ahead and take a few hours to get it all done. With recipes and ingredients and all that good stuff. It was a nice day so I decided to grill out and I made bacon bleu cheese pretzel burgers. I don’t want to brag but they were delicious. Sadly, mine was just a plain burger on a pretzel bun because I’ve been cursed with picky eating.

In the end, AoM makes a lot of good points about the value of knowing how to be effective in the kitchen and I can vouch for a good number of their points. To highlight a couple of my favorite points, cooking is social and it’s creative. You’d be surprised how many people are impressed by cooking skills. There are guys who can brag about the guns they have or how many cars they’ve worked on, but not everyone can relate to thatGreta kind of stuff. On the other hand, everyone eats and they respect someone who can make them happy with food. You can impress dates or bosses or friends. I’ve auctioned off dinners for fundraisers or just invited friends over to have a relaxing dinner and evening. Food is powerful. Not only does it impress people if it tastes good, but also if you make something new they’ve never had before. It is so fun to search for and test out new ingredients or recipes for food. It’s a fantastic chance to be creative and really reap the benefits. I was always very active with art in school and now that that’s done I can keep the fun going by stepping into my kitchen. It’s such a privilege to get creative.

I had a lot of fun with today’s task. I just hope tomorrow will be kind.

Feeling a little hungry,


I got some links for those pics:

Meme – https://onsizzle.com/t/bad_cars

Burger – https://www.runza.com/menu/product/pretzel-bbq-bacon-&-swiss-burger

Greta – https://weminoredinfilm.com/2014/05/09/13-things-you-may-not-know-about-nightmare-on-elm-street-5-the-dream-child/

Junji Ito: Who is he and why do I get biology papers when I google him?

I announced awhile back that I planned on following up my 30 Days to a Better Man series with a 30 Days to a Better Woman series (find that announcement here). Things have gotten complicated. By the time I finish the 30 Days to a Better Man series it will be the beginning of May and I will not have 30 days left to become a better woman before I leave for the summer (which I already talked about here). So that series will either start at the end of August or begin in May and end in August. It will all depend on the new participant on this series: my sister (at least I hope so because she hasn’t said yes yet). The plan is she will do the activity during the day, we’ll talk about it that night and I’ll ghost write about it the next day. So there will be a delay of a day between each post.

Now, a new series starts today and will probably end only if one of these things happen: a. I die (each letter in that phrase has a song link so enjoy) b. I lose the ability to write c. I get tired of posting on here and this blog falls into obscurity d. the Apocolypse occurs e. the unlikely instance of me running out of things to babble about. This series will feature a different topic for each post and will be tied together by the fact that each topic is about something I love. This includes places to eat, films, books, people, video games and other various topics I haven’t thought of yet. I’m sure from the title of this blog it was evident that this type of posting would arrive on the scene rather soon, so I’m sure none of you are surprised by this series. I’ve decided to call it Trivial Matters. Not because the subject matter is trivial but rather the fact that they interest me and why they interest me are trivial topics. I plan on using this series to get this blog through the summer rather than force myself to find a topic each week at random.

Warning: Graphic and Frightening Images to Follow

When I was a sophomore in high school I became the empty shell of human being constantly in search of a way to feel anything meaningful in my daily life. I thus turned to the internet which I’ve come to realize is often ruled by people who are in search of a way to feel anything meaningful in their daily lives. Don’t worry about my mental health (it’s beyond saving), I’m only being half-serious. Anyway, I would basically use the internet for one thing: horror. I watched horror let’s plays, I read creepypasta, I read Junji Ito. I discovered him while looking for something more substantial than creepypasta jeff the killer fanfic which was all the rage at the time. I forget exactly how I found it, but I came across his series “Uzumaki” which has become one of my favorite books (that I love to mortify other people with). Uzumaki is a haunting tale/manga about a small Japanese seaside town that is haunted not by ghosts but by the concept and design of a spiral (which is what Uzumaki translates to). It sounds dumb, but just check out some of the art from the book:

It’s disturbing. It’s been about five years since I first read this and it still haunts me and I don’t consider myself to have a weak constitution, but Junji Ito has a way of breaking me down. A majority of his writing could be classified as body horror especially since he has the disturbing skill of contorting and managing the human body in ways it was never meant to be shown doing. HE HAS A STORY ABOUT PEOPLE SEWING THEMSELVES INTO HUMAN WEBS!! I’ve said before that I am a huge fan of horror. I have entire shelves haunted schooldevoted solely to horror novels and films. The first chapter book I read was a Goosebumps book, this one specifically:

So finding Ito was a blessing. I love his books and art. They mesh so well and they deliver effective and masterful horror tones and themes. Ito constantly writes about the common human and the randomness of true horror. He also loves to cover the ferocity of the human psyche and the dangers that lie in the mind of every person. Uzumaki is going to stand for my example of these themes. The main characters are Kirie Goshima and her boyfriend Shuichi Saito. Neither of them stands out or seem specifically special in any regard yet they remain the story’s protagonists. Kirie literally stands at the center of the story not only because she is the lead protagonist, but also because she may literally lie at the center of the curse of the town. Her boyfriend is the first to notice the effects of the curse and his family is the first to be affected by it. Also, Kirie is consistently involved in various events related to the curse and also stands as the focal point of these events (examples: the hurricane, her hair, her time in the hospital, the row house). But the commonplace nature of both Kirie and Shuichi creates a more realistic bond between the reader and the story. It is largely because they are innocent and average people that the reader feels a deep desire for their survival. They have done nothing wrong to deserve the suffering that overtakes their lives. This could be said about a majority of the characters in many of his stories. Although there are exceptions to this innocent human rule. Such examples would be Kirie’s teacher, Mr. Yokota, and her family’s neighbor, Mr. Wakabayashi, both of whom fall victim to the curse after they break a norm of polite or moral society. They are not dangerous directly because of the curse (which is most likely a contributor), but rather because of their unbecoming attitudes. Ito is capable of writing strong stories filled with memorable and distinct characters that liven his books up from the moment that character enters stage right, so to speak. I love Ito and I think he doesn’t get enough attention from both the mainstream audience or the academic world which I liken to a human tragedy. I implore you to at least check out his books and peek around the internet. I’ve discovered you can find a few of his works (most likely illegally) posted for free on different sites if you just put a little effort into looking. A few of my favorites are The Thing that Drifted Ashore, The Window Next Door, Gyo and Army of One. Also, I get biology papers from Junji Ito the scientist before Junji Ito the manga author because my Ito isn’t famous enough yet.

A little bit of a fanboy for Junji Ito,



All that good photo stuff:

Uzumaki1- https://www.reddit.com/r/creepy/comments/3dbh8z/scene_from_chapter_1_of_junji_itos_uzumaki_spiral/

Uzumaki 2 – http://www.panelpatter.com/2015/05/the-maddening-spirals-of-junji-itos.html

Uzumaki 3- https://www.youtube.com/watchv=THVNN5AgJeE&ab_channel=CodeProvider

Uzumaki 4 – https://www.pinterest.com/pin/557531628841884369/

Goosebumps – http://goosebumps.wikia.com/wiki/The_Haunted_School

30 Days to a Better Man – My Day 14 – This Post is Private: Sorry About That :/

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So today’s task was extremely personal and private and it’s going to stay that way. AoM wanted everyone to acknowledge the influence your father has in your life. Then you are meant to write him a letter about how you feel. This is supposed to be a releasing activity and an exercise in better learning how to vocalize emotions between a father and a son. Since this day is meant to have only interaction between that relationship, it does not seem appropriate to showcase my writings on the internet. So instead there will be a post about two upcoming series and one of my favorite authors. Although, I will say writing out my feelings about my father (which he will never read because I promptly burned the letter three minutes after I finished it) was actually releasing. I don’t always get along with him, but he does try his best even if he has the hardest time articulating his feelings with other people. Anyway, that’s about all I feel comfortable saying today. There will 100% be another post today and this time I’m coming through on that promise. I need to apologize for the other times I said this and produce no other post for the day. The only explanation I have is: Nobody’s perfect (you live and you learn it/and if I mess it up sometimes/nobody’s perfect).

A little guilty of breaking promises,


That pic up there:

youtube – http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/gadgets-and-tech/news/youtube-adverts-blocked-videos-channel-less-10000-views-extremism-funding-a7672021.html